Date: Saturday, February 28, 2009
Time: 12:34:00 AM

I guess its too late to realise the mistakes... too much time and effort had been wasted. But probably, it's better too late than never. Somehow... everything's had been settled. Somehow... I had managed to open up my mouth and let my feelings known. I really had a good talk with Her Royal Highness earlier on. And, I had been ordered by Her Royal Highness to go home and not work late everyday. For the concerns showered upon me, I am thankful to have Her Royal Highness. But then again, I am her pet. lols!

Who is my "Her Royal Highness"? Do make a guess.. That term just came to me this afternoon. Haha..

Date: Thursday, February 26, 2009
Time: 9:55:00 PM

Today, I left school at 6 pm! Not because there was contact time..but because, I had so much to do! I didn't even have time to clear my work station. Maybe, I should just spend the night in school.. just like how I used to attend Netball camps there when I was younger! Haha.. Ever since Day 1 of TP, I had not been leaving school at 2.30. Not that I do not wish too.. but because I had no choice but to do so...

I have been advised to seek advice from the SCM and NSC for the workload that I've been given. But I know the outcome, not that it wouldn't be heard but it is better not to be heard. Cos I know the people too well. Let's just hope I can hold on till 8th May...

100 LPs are ready. Time to get on with the resources.... really need to do a major-major Art & Craft work.. will I be able to survive? The heavy rains have not been helping.. The nose, and body has been acting up... haiz... let's just pray that I'll survive(insya'allah).

Date: Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Time: 6:44:00 PM

I am really miserable.. really am. Only Day 2 of TP, and I am getting crazy. Dahlah nasib bagaikan "anak luar nikah ditinggalkan di luar chapel".. Pastu dikutip dan "didera" bagaikan si Cinderella. Wadahell of the hell...!

I won't say much here. Cos I am just venting my anger and frustrations. And what makes me sane is your support and encouragements, Atie (plus jokes cekik darah smlm...) and also that other person. Thank you for helping.

Now... I am thinking again... do I really want to be there for permanent posting? Unless... (fill in the blanks)

Ooh well, why am I turning pessimistic? And when will I be able to start on the last piece of assignment? It won't be completed at this rate.. just a suggestion... asal tak nak buat class on Saturday sekali? Biar semua aku ajar. 12 hours shift mcm banglas kat construction site sebelah building kita. Pastu, boleh gi Tekka makan tosei! pfft!!

Sorry.. I am sarcastic.

Date: Thursday, February 19, 2009
Time: 12:38:00 AM

Date: Friday, February 13, 2009
Time: 11:36:00 AM

Yes, this is what has been happening to me right now. I am affected by some things that had been going on for quite a while now. I want to let it go, but I am not sure if I can. Should I be selfish and hold on to it? Or should I let it go and makes both parties suffer like I normally do? Both ways, I will be hurt. So which is the best way?

Usually, I will just let go and run away from it. But after what happened between me and the boy best friend (bbf), I guess I should stop running away from the current problem. Really, I should. But how do I go about doing it?

I know I have not been focussing in my work. I know I have been day dreaming alot. I know I have been living in my own world for the whole week already. And I've not been motivated to do much things. I knew I have changed ever since knowing that person. For the worst. I have another 10 weeks to battle. I hope I can go through Practicum without much worries. I hope I can settle this unnecessary distractions. Insya'allah I will.

Date: Monday, February 9, 2009
Time: 10:21:00 PM

Seriously, I shouldn't be blogging right now. I have better things to do. Or rather, more important things to do. For instance, start on my Essay writing which is due in a couple of days' time or SLEEP. But oh well, the procrastinating demon, is still intact in my body. And so, here I am blogging my time away.

So, many things have happened for the past few weeks. I am disturbed by it. Unfortunately, all these ongoings are just too personal that it can't be divulge in either my FB Notes or in blogspot. All I can say or question is, "Why is Fate playing this kind of cruel joke on me?"

I've had enough. Let's stop playing this game. If you know me well enough, you would know that I am likely to give in even though it might not be to my advantage. And you know my principles too. So again, I shall posed this question, " So, what now?"

Date: Sunday, February 8, 2009
Time: 3:51:00 AM

My question is, "So, now what?"

Date: Monday, February 2, 2009
Time: 11:06:00 PM

So many things have happened in the last couple of weeks. One of the highlights of those happenings was me being sick and still sick at this moment. Physically, I am sick. But emotionally and mentally, I am sick too. To be precise, I am sick of school. Yes, with all the shits that are going on... I've lost my motivation to go to school. By far, this has been the slackest semester in my two years in school but this is also the most "conflicts" semester as well.

Large cohort, is equivalent to thousand and ones of problems. I've seen it, gone through it and many more. I've heard alot, read alot and seen alot about some people in my cohort. But, I chose to ignore it. Even if there's a need to talk about it, I'll just bitch about it within my circle of friends and that's it. I mean, I am no perfect being myself. Afterall, I am a human who do err at times.

So right now, there is an issue going around. Yes, I heard it. I read it. But, I decide not to get involve with it. Afterall, its the final year. Its the final semester. Just want to get out of school trouble free and lead my own life. What's there to bother about all this minor stuff blown out of proportion?

In life, we are prone to meet people who have bad attitude, bad personality and whats not. We simply can't please everyone. And, I do salute people who can get along with everyone. But, I guess, we just got to live with it. If we dun like anyone for that matter, just walk away and ignore them. Dun step on their toes and dun let them step on ur toes. As simple as that. Otherwise, learn to know them. Cos, sometimes.. we dun really know a person yet we are ready to just them just by impressions. I've done this quite a lot. But once I start to know them, I realise.. yes, the world is a better place if we could practice some tolerance. Only if...

And why am I blabbering about all this cliche sayings of life....? Ooh well... just trying to make myself feel better cos I am really tired with what's have been happening. I want to get out of school ASAP!