Date:
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Time: 10:56:00 PM
The video clip is still playing on my head. Touching like hell! Is this what they call telepathy shared between us?? Here I am, trying to keep that song in my head; blasting it on my iTunes and iPhone, there you're, recording it, strumming your guitar and let the vocal chords come to play.
I was so touch to watch you do that video cos I guess only the both of us could relate to that song. Here I am, hoping that the day would never come and there you are reflecting what it's gonna be like if you had done otherwise.
Well, I just need to say this to the both of us. We can't deny the fact that we're plainly cowards in revealing our feelings for each other. Things wouldn't be this crappy if we had not let the matter drag till now. All I need to say, opportunities wasn't on our side. And, yes.. I came back into your life a tad too late. Ooh well.
I've spend the last few days reflecting on our friendship. To hate you, no.. it was never your fault. If it was your fault, I need to shoulder some blame too. To love you, I don't think I do have that special feelings for you anymore. Probably, it's that unique feelings that we had forged during the last 8 years that I find hard to let go.
However, I had spent some time pondering over our friendship. I am now letting you go with full sincerity and blessings. Go and search for your happiness. Perhaps, God has better plans for us. So what if you and I end up together in a relationship/marriage? Will it brings us permanent happiness and togetherness? Well, maybe. But at least in this current status that we are in, you'll always be that someone whom I refer to as 'best friend' and you'll be the one that I'll run up to whenever I am bogged down with emotionals breakdowns. Cos I know, you'll never say 'No' to me.
Yes bestfriend, I am really letting you go together with all the regrets we've had. You have my blessings, honestly. I want to see you be a happy man. And yes, our memories together are safely etched in my head. It will never go. And if I ever miss you, I will just listen to our song.
