Date:
Friday, December 12, 2008
Time: 4:16:00 PM
I was on my way to meet i2 yesterday when Taugeh messaged me to inform me that results are FINALLY out!! My heart stopped for a while. I was all prepared to see Cs (if I were lucky enough) and Ds (if my luck really ran out)!! Just a week ago, I dreamt of getting Cs and Ds for my results. It was that bad.
My mood hadn't been that fantastic ever since the Linguistics paper on 12th November. I was crying inside, shouting at myself to write as many things as possible; make sense or not. At the end of the paper, I knew I just blew it off. I was cursing myself like crazy; what's the point of doing a great research for the presentation, write great essays and doing well in the tree diagram test, when I blew off the exams? Everything just went haywire after that day.
The only glimpse of hope was the last piece of DCD assignment that I had. Whenever I am down, I will take the opportunity to reflect. And, in the end I completed that assignment way way before the rest could even attempt it.
For Sastera, I couldn't even be bothered anymore. I was not even interested to take the exams. But the questions found in the exams was relatively easy that I didn't really have to worry much. But only for the flu and the huge pile of used tissue papers on the table, it kinda affected my concentration.
Well, in the end... the results that I've got was way way beyond what I had imagined. Alhamdullilah, for all the sacrifices made, the sleep deprived days, the great group members for their support and encouragements, everything is well paid off.
I did extremely well for DCD and DCZ, which I am proud of. I am not boasting, but DCD was the module which holds the highest AU weightage this sem. Hence getting a quality A for this module was so much well deserved. Thank you lecturers for not playing favourtism but rather, assessed us from our efforts and hard work. It is through this kind of assessments that I felt every sacrifices was well worth it. As for DCZ, though the weightage is not that high, a quality A is better than nothing.
I believed God was fair. I had been teaching CME since contract days and even during TA, I was duped into doing a video of that lesson. In the end, I could used that unit for my individual assignment with the activities changed and modified. Spending 3 days and 2 nights using Photoshop to get things done wasn't an easy meat. But in the end, everything was well worth it.
Though, I had expected an A from another module, it seemed like it would never had come cos that maplek is such a screwed up cheekopek! Whatever it is, I earned my B+ through my hard work. And yes, back to Linguistics.. I got a B! Nothing to shout about. Nothing to be proud of. But this grade really matters alot to me. Those A+ -es are nothing if I had say, gotten a D for this module. I earned this grade despite being emotionally disturbed.
I am just so proud of the results. It's like finally... the hard work and efforts are really appreciated and have been duly rewarded. Next semester, I am READY!!
"You will no longer be a threat in my life; I will no longer be hurt by your presence. Thank you for hurting me for the last 7 years. It has been a lesson learnt."
I thanked Allah for showing me the right path, for letting me see the truth and blessing me with a group of wonderful friends whom I can rely on. Not to forget, for giving me the brain as good as a genius which somehow I had failed to utilise it fully. I will wake up now and see things clearly before I embark on them. Insya'allah.
