Date:
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Time: 6:04:00 PM
I want to get this out of my head as soon as possible. Just a few days ago, I dreamt of the ex-. As mentioned, about him in my class and about him mixing around with the boys in the class, making me hate him even more. But, I had a sense of relieved when I woke up knowing that it was just a dream. Only God knows why I dreamt of him when honestly speaking, I no longer think of him.
However, last night, I had another dream about him! Like, what the hell right?! It has been almost 4 years since we concluded the whole issue yet this dreams are disturbing the peace of my mind.
Last night, I dreamt about him seeking my help, to find a place in the Vivo area or something like that. And the stupid me.. did what he asked despite it being at 5 am in the morning! Am I crazy or what??
Seriously, why do I have to think of him again?! Even if he return to my life any time soon.... there is no way we could be together ever again. Even if I can forgive him, my friends can't and even if I forgive him, I won't be able to forget all the things that had happened between us.
It took me a while to really let go.. but to hit the restart..? I must be really crazy unless I am taking revenge!
Maybe, just maybe... God is telling me to forgo my sleep. To just get on with my never ending assignments. To go without sleep for the next 7 days.....? Orang gila aje yang buat gitu! I want to embark on my Feminisme & Sukma Angin by tonight.. starting on my STDKG by tomorrow, hopefully... and my E-book Lesson Plan! Urgh...! And DSD Essay.. DCD individual assignments.. and test and 2 exams!!!!
Please somebody.. tell me that time will stop for a moment, let me catch a breather. Tell me, sleep is just a waste of time, dreaming about people who no longer means anything to me. Tell me, I have the strength to go on with all datelines met by 4th November, insya-allah.
