Date: Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Time: 11:22:00 PM

I sort of sit down and did some thinking on my way home from school today. School's premises look like its at dawn though it was only 9-ish at night. The wonders of God's creation.

Anyway, I wasn't reflecting on the wonders of God's creation but rather issues on XXX . I started to think back... like how it all started. I had no recollection of that story.. Maybe it hit me hard after that one evening.. but it faded as quickly as it came. After about a month or so, the incident that happened last Wednesday was the turning point. And since then, it seems like I am more aware of his presence than in the past. But today, I gave away the chance of going back on the same route with him just like last week.

For some reasons... I am disappointed at myself for going crazy over him. Yes, I reflected on WHY DID I DEVELOPED A CRUSH FOR HIM? I muz be hallucinating... really, really really.. someone said something to me today which really makes me ponder on this issue.

I knows myself well enough than anyone else. I know that I am not the monotonous, stick by routine person, but he is.. He is just so opposite of me and people says opposite attract but for how long?

I'd guess it's time for me to start this new game.. to avoid him and hopefully the feelings' for him would be gone. I guess I was really really hallucinating or sleep walking when that thought of developing a crush on you started.

I am tired..........