Date:
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Time: 8:04:00 PM
The group mates have been asking who's XXX. Haha.. the aim of this post is not to reveal who's XXX, yet. Anyhow, I do want to clarify one thing here, there is no way that I am going to reveal his identity any time soon. Maybe never at all. Let this crush issue be that tiny little secret that only my heart holds on to.
Not to say I do not trust any of you. That's not the point. If I do not trust any of you, I would have not share gossips with you guys. Simple as that. It's just that I am going after the impossible. Don't ask me why it's impossible. It goes down a long list. So save it, since our list of assignments are expanding never seems to diminish any time soon till end of this month, like it or not.
To put it simply, I do not have any confident to hold on to another relationship despite it going into 4 years since I ended that hateful, revengeful, lies, pain, agony yet memorable relationship. I thought he was THE ONE then. We've made plans and envisioned the future together. But Fate is just so funny at times, name it cruel too.
I may have moved on. I have fallen for other guys after a year of hell after that break up. However, the feeling goes as quickly as it comes. The longest crush I ever had was with 'C', the Dutch guy. Well, maybe if he had not left for London... I might still be crazy over him. Maybe, I guess..
Then, when he left early last year.. I got close to my platonic friend who's engaged. Was I crazy or what?! I went on dates with him and Adik didn't favour him. So out he goes from the list. We're still the best of friends. Then, when I got into NIE, I was close with my partner till early this year just shortly before last semester ends.
The partner graduated, got a full time job and I am left alone with no one to keep me motivated this semester. Quite sad actually. Haha.. But that's my partner. He had seen the best and worst outta me.
And so where do XXX come into play? It was actually during the days when my partner and I drifted. Last semester, I hardly have any essay to do (as in English essays) and he was busy with his thesis which he had procrastinated like since God knows when! The only essay that I helped him vet was the Social Science essay on Islam and Hinduism in SEA. So, last semester we hardly meet up.. that was when I realised the existence of XXX.
See partner, I've told you not to let me step into NUS anymore cos I have a soft spot for NUS' guys. Like remember that ex-NUS guy now in RGS? Lol... Now, XXX is also from NUS! Haha.. Funny!
But I am sure and confident, I will just forget XXX as quickly as I had fallen for him. Shoot me if I still harbours any hope for XXX come next year. Ooh maybe that's too long. I would have gone on to my next target by then. Let's see.. who it gonna be. Anyone has a suggestion for me? Nothing much that I would hope for... other than...
- 1979 babies ARE most wanted
- those who's birthday falls on the 5th day of the month, preferably 1979 babies please.
Dun ask me why... the 3 junkies who had been with me are BY coincidence 1979 babies and by coincidence too, their birthdays fall on the 5th day of the month. Maybe, you might say 1979 babies and me clash, but let me assure you it's the Best choice for me only that I pick the wrong choice. Haha.. Ok 'nuff for now.
