Date:
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Time: 6:49:00 PM
Somehow... I am feeling shitty right now. So many things have got to happen at the same time and I am also stressed out with my assignments date lines. Why do things have to turn out this way? Why must I take the blame for the things that have to happen? Sometimes, I do regret taking this path. How nice it would be if I had just let him take me away 2 years ago?
Well, this is what happened when you defy all odds. And though some of the things that happened are not my fault, I am in a way affected and will be held responsible. I am really sick of all these. Honestly. Will I be able to withstand this obstacle once again?
Ya Allah, give me the strength to continue cos I believe that there's a blessing in disguise.
On another note, I am not sure if this is a good news or not.. but being offered a permanent posting even before graduation is an achievement. But yes, it comes with a price. Now what do I do now? Let's just wait... They can only plan for me, at the end of the day... it's me who will decide.
With all these shitty nonsense going on... I am beginning to miss you alot. But I know, its really impossible for us to be together. I will just try to forget you and I hope, as easily as I had developed a crush for you, I will also try to forget you as easily. I am trying... and all those laughters will hide the sadness in my eyes.
Just tell me why this have to happen and why it happened to me?!
