Date:
Friday, September 5, 2008
Time: 1:44:00 AM
I am in the situation whereby my emotions is building up to the point that I can have an emotional outburst. I am not sure if it just me over reacting or is it because some people are just out to irritate hell out of me. I am really sick and tired with some people's attitude. It just set me thinking about my current group mates. The group of people whom I met and clicked with by accident last semester. I am so blessed to have them as my group members!
Like how we worked together to pull of the hardest piece of assignment together, helping out one another in other assignments, reminding each other of datelines and so on. But on the other hand, some people out of me clique just loves to take advantage of me and others. Is it so hard to be rational and make some sacrifice instead of setting out to cause inconvenience in other people's life?
They said, money is the root of all evil. Indeed, some people are so farking selfish when it comes to money. For me, I do not mind sharing my money, though I am not filthy rich. I do not think twice when spending my money on people whom I loved and cared for. But please do not take advantage of my kindness. There is a limit to my patience. Though I do not expect you to repay my kindness, neither do I expect you to come to me only when you needed help. And to what have happened, I am going to learn my lesson.
Hopefully, after tomorrow... everything will be over. After tomorrow, I will be free. If you're tired, I am tired as well. If you say you need money to survive, I need it to for I don't survive on air. If you say you need time for your family and yourself, all the more I say I need that TIME for I too have my family and friends to think for. And just to simply put it, I am after all a human being. There is a limit to everything.
The week have not been a good start. Probably, seeing Adik's cries have spoilt my week. As often as we love to fight and irritates the hell of each other, but we love each other. I love the times when adik nags to show his concerns or the times when he just sticks to me.
And of course, peppered in with several other issues that took place during class just pissed the hell outta me! And to add on to the misery... this f^$*$king issue have to happen. I am tired and really really tired to be bothered.
Even to know about the likelihood of the permanent posting doesn't makes thing any easier. Not to say that I dislike the place but rather I visualised myself playing the role of a permanent staff when I do come back for my 10 weeks' attachment.
Whatever ... all I need to tell myself is to FOCUS. If I keep on giving in to people, who will give in to me? Tell me, somebody!
