Date:
Monday, July 14, 2008
Time: 6:34:00 PM
The lesson observation went pretty well, I must say. Well, perhaps according to the NSC's standard. But in my eyes, I kinda screwed it up! And I am really upset. Thank you gals for making my observation a failure! This is one reason, I lurve teaching boys!! Naughty as they might be, still I can managed them better. I rather have the naughtiest bunch of boys compared to the most angelic and demure gals!!
If I could bring myself to tell the truth to the NSC, I would have blurted everything out. However, because I do not want to have a bad relationship with the people involved, I decided to keep it in myself and tolerate with all these sufferings till at least for another 9 more days! If I had went through 15 days already, what is another 9 days?? Am I right?
So anyway, I was given good comments except for my lesson planning which yeah, I know its my fault. Cos I wasnt told what to teach and focus on for today. And honestly, there wasnt clear communication on the time-table and so on... yeah so I am going to put this observation aside and improve on my weak areas.
I am thankful to God that I had a very nice and a wonderful supervisor. She called me last night to reassure me that everything is going on fine and I need not worry. She told me this is just one of the very first observation that I will go through and there are many more. There isnt any grade to be given so I needn't be that stressful. She could sensed that I wasnt myself last night and this morning she asked me again if I am alright. At the end of the lesson, she told me my stress is over, but I told not as yet cos today is a long Monday for me with the recording to go on later in the day.
And to make my day even worse, my P4s... disappointed me greatly when they make me do retake after retakes. Kaoz! Gals, I am so damn tired k... and tomorrow you people better dun make me lose face again! And do you gals know how pressurising it is to be watched by other people for the recording?! Please k gals... you ppl better not disappoint me!
Ooh the official time clocked for the sleeping hours was 8 hours in two days! I was trembling during this morning's assembly. And weirdly enough, I became awake after the observation! Yeah, if I did not become awake... only God knows what will happen. Haha...
Today... I so going to sleep to my hearts' content! Tmr.. I will resume work. That's me, more often than not, loves to declare unofficial holidays!
