Date: Saturday, July 12, 2008
Time: 9:04:00 AM

Last Thursday, I had a very good cry. I could no longer sustain the amount of pressure that I was holding on. Many have said that TA isn't as stressful as TP. But in my case, I am going through hell. I simply hate it when people gave me last minute work, make me decide on what to do and after carefully thinking and planning, they threw out my ideas and hard work and used theirs'.

Last Thursday, everything came to the point where I could no longer took it anymore, thus explaining the abundant supply of tears that rolled down my cheeks. And, after that cry.. the situation couldn't got any better, when the sup e-mailed me to inform that she's coming down on Monday to observe my lesson. And, she'd picked the P3's! And, I am the first that she's so going to observed! And, on that day, I've the recording thingy! And, my CT is the one who loves doing last minute planning! What the F**K?!

I so hate what I am going through right now... Its another 2 weeks, I kept on telling myself. But, I still have a life to live on... I am not a slave driver! And I am so tired, simply put.

Yesterday, I had 6 periods of back to back lessons! And I was suddenly down with flu! And I am so sad that life has gone this way...

I pray and will continue to pray that everything will proceed on smoothly. Time will fly when you're having fun! Whatever the fun, I so going to lead myself on for the next 2 weeks, at least!