Date:
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Time: 11:44:00 PM
Sometimes... I just can't help but to feel nostalgic. Today, out of a sudden... my memory brought me to those good old days. The memories of 2006-2007. To be precise, the days that my friendship with 'C' started. I know... I seldom talks about 'C' these days... cos I am trying hard to forget him but at times, I can't help to think about him.
And so... 'C' and I met under the weirdest circumstances. He never gave me a good first impression or perhaps, he came on the day that many people have stepped on my toes. But yes, I regretted those reactions of mine. However, 'C' being the ever so sweet and considerate guy, he never took those to heart.
I am and will always be the smart and intelligent girl in his eyes. I am and will always be the walking dictionary of his country. And he, will always occupy a spot in my heart. There will be no doubt about it. And today, I missed him terribly!
I remembered knowing 'C" some time in early 2006. But I couldn't remember how the rest started. All I knew was, everything came to an abrupt end in Nov 2006. Yes, that was how short our story was.
I had faced some rough times some where in July 2006. I was demoralised and perhaps it was all fated. A former customer of mine decided to poach me and convinced me to start climbing the corporate ladder. I was toying with that offer for quite a while; the guy was quite serious with it and he tried to get some important people to convince me as well.
Well, I almost decided to start that big climb before a gathering with some former classmates, help changed my mind. I made one final attempt to join the goverment service and all was history.
I remembered sending my application in late September/early October. Got their reply in early November. Went for the interview in mid-Nov. And during these times, 'C' was away. 3 weeks out station. 2 weeks in London for work and a week in the Netherlands for his friend's wedding. He came back the day after my interview; which I thought I had blew it away.
That day, 17th Nov 2006, was my happiest day (having to see him again) and yet it was also my saddest day cos he dropped the bombshell, saying that he's leaving Singapore for good. The friendship was about to start on a new level yet, it came to an abrupt end. I was quite upset when I got that news from him.
He tried to make up for it. But.. only God knows how I felt at that time. A month later, I received the news. I have been finally accepted to join the government sector. Since 'C' was leaving, there wasn't any meaning to climb the corporate ladder and be in an environment where he's no longer there. So, I accepted the appointment into the government sector and be a government servant.
That was in December. He had taken a few weeks off for X'mas and New Year. He was going to Cambodia that year. He never goes back to his family for X'mas for some reason. He came by a day before his trip. I broke the news to him as well and present him with my latest creation, 'Cheeky Monster'.
He was delighted with the news and I was grinning all that time. But in my heart, I was crushed. To cut it short, we had another memorable 2 months of 2007 before he left for a greener pastures and I left to start on my new appointment.
I will never forget that moments of friendship I'd shared with 'C' and he will always have a place in my heart. When I am feeling low and when the world thinks that I am near to failure, he was there all along to lift my spirits and gave me encouragements and beliefs that I could do it. In the end, I managed to clear that obstacles. And, doing my current job well is akin to making 'C' happy.
And I am doing all these for 'C' though I know we are just not meant for each other. And again, come back to this old question that I still couldn't answer... Am I ready to let go and begin a fresh relationship? Time will tell....
ooooohhh... ain't this so nostalgic?!
