Date: Thursday, January 31, 2008
Time: 10:22:00 PM

Everything seemed to go wrong since last Tuesday. I was down with a very bad flu for no reason. Yeah, sickness comes for no reason anyway. *sniggers*

Project meeting didn't goes as planned as two members were absent and the other 3 of us went on a real stress mode as there were plenty of loose ends that were needed to be tie up. Lesson plan to be completed, slides to compiled, lesson activity materials to prepare, worksheet and rubrics to vet and printed out. All these were done with the sickening flu and continuous flow of sneezings. It was so sickening because Tuesdays will and shall always be a long day for me.

And so what did I do? Well, after the meeting which was conducted during our 4 hours break, I went on a "couldn't- care-less-anymore" mode. And it was raining heavily as well. After school, I went home straight. The moment I reached home, I got changed and popped my pills.

I didn't even touch any school stuff. I went straight to bed w/o even setting any alarm cos I was all ready to go on an MC should the worst scenario happens.

I woke up at 4 am the next day to settle some loose ends as on Wednesday[yesterday] was supposedly be our final meeting and every editing and compilation should be done b4 the day ends.

Somehow, everything just went haywire. Everything seemed to piss me off. I was mad at almost everyone, I was mad at myself most. I guess it was all the jitters I was facing. And, everything seemed to be like last minute.

Project meeting ended at about 6.45 pm! Ooh my God! That was like the latest and the longest meeting I ever had. Ooh not really.. the latest I ever left school was at 11 pm!

But everything went so slow yesterday. Project's progress, public transport, my mind, etc. The only thing that went quickly was TIME! That was why I went mad at myself. Probably because, I was still sick. Probably I was tired since I had been awake since 3 am earlier. And probably, I was HUNGRY! So, I became crancky!

I reached home at about 8.15 pm. Had my dinner and watched some TV progs to unwind. Began my project preparation at only 10 PM all the way till about 1 AM! And, I did not even prepare my speakers' note! Like, what the hell do I need to say? Like, what will happened on the day itself? I slept at about 2 am...

This morning, when the alarm rang at 6.30 am, I felt as if I had the longest sleep ever. But it was a refreshing hibernation moments. Got ready for school since we're meeting 1.5 hours b4 the presentation. And, I was thinking.. ok, ok chill. I can do my speaker's note on the train or smtg like that.

But the moment I reached school, I had to do more materials preparation! And, so there goes my plan to do my speaker's note. Even in the train, I was on a "I-need-my-peace" mode.

So, I just leave it to God. I prayed and say all the prayers I know. Had my 10-15 minutes of fame. And, syukur alhamdullilah... our group's presentation went so smoothly! And, all of us were praised by the lecturer for having done an excellent job. It was like all the hard work was worth it. I felt so happy and need to thank my team for the job well done. I guess this is one of my best project group ever! And, I hope this team work will stay for a long time, insya-allah!

So one presentation down, here's a list of "What's up for Feb-March 2008":

1st Feb: Meeting with my best buddy in NIE for our GESL's Show and Tell session preparation
04th-10th Feb: E-learning [Got to prepare for Bahas, DCZ presentation, weekly online test, DLK response, DLK assignment, whatever other E-learning assignments]
13th Feb: Bahas presentation!
18th Feb: DLK assignment Due date!
22nd Feb: Show and Tell session
23rd-02nd March: Recess week
03rd March: DSD assignment due Date!

** There will be other tests, interviews,assignments due.... I better make use of e-learning to finish whatever I can. I'll stop procrastinating! Wow!!

Date: Saturday, January 26, 2008
Time: 10:55:00 PM

Honestly, I had no recollections of what happened last night, or rather what happened in the wee hours of the morning. All I remembered was, I played online games on Facebook and was watching snippets of American Idol. I remembered I was trying hard to stay awake. And, the rest was history. I can't rmbr what time I woke up to go to the loo but by then, my laptop was already on the floor and switched off. I dun remember doing all the shut down thingy!

So this morning, my friend asked me, "you fell asleep?" I was like.. "err, I guessed so cos I didn't remember anything!" My friend told me everything was quiet on my side and I was still online went she logged off at 4 am.

There are days these kind of things happened. There are also days where I dun even know how I ended up on my own bed. Seriously. Can someone help me on this?

Date: Friday, January 25, 2008
Time: 5:08:00 PM

My facilitator is one hell of a ****. Informing him something about a problem I am facing, is as good as not telling him at all. If I had followed my emotions, I would have not given that bitch in the group any chance of redemption. But, for God's sake, I did not follow my emotions though there were times that I was tempted to. I resisted and gave her chances. Yet, she did not capitalise on the chances given. Instead, she went one big round to backstab me. She painted a picture as if I was in the wrong and not her. And, for her information, she was just playing with fire. I'd everything documented in black and white.

So, what's my worry here?

I am not worried if she decides to tarnish my reputation because whoever steps on my toes will gets their retribution not by my doing but because I believe in this, "what goes around comes around'. What I am actually upset with is her attitude and the facilitator's 'you're the leader so you jolly well get this matter settled' attitude!

Yes, it is my responsibility to get everyone working together and find a solution to make it happen. But, if someone is already bent on not counting herself as part of the group, there isn't anything that I can do. Afterall, I am also a human being. I can be as evil and cruel as I've used to be but I've mellowed down alot.

Haiz.. why did I put myself in this situation by volunteering to be the leader? I must have been possessed there and then! The people whom I tot would give me more troubles were easily tamed by me. But, yes.... I have misjudged. Blardy ma***k!

Date: Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Time: 11:42:00 PM

I've been feeling a little melancholic of late. Perhaps, memorising the words to my 5 minutes speech brought back all kinds of memories from the past. Like, how I could host a competition with self-composed witty lines and delivering it with much confidence and clarity yet, nowadays, I've lost all that kind of skills. Perhaps, I am rusty.

Anyway, as January approaches, it just only mean two things. Firstly, when January ends, February will play its part. And, when February plays its part, it just means that a year has past. A year since 'C' left for London and I too left for a greener pasture.

Last year, he gave me lotsa surprises. But, I wonder if I will get any surprise from him this year.. All I need is just an email from him cos it had been a long while since I last heard from him. And, of course, I have not sent him an email for a long time as well.

They said, absence makes the heart grows fonder. It may be true to a certain extent. But for me, I no longer have that special feelings for him. But as a friend, I miss him terribly. An email from him will be a morale booster and of course a surprise from him is even sweeter.
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The Show & Tell session has been brought forward to an earlier date. Blardy hell! I have like only 3 weeks to prepare. Ooh my god!! And I am freaking out right now!

I am praying hard that my team won't be selected for the Guest of Honour presentation session.
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Date: Saturday, January 19, 2008
Time: 11:29:00 AM

Has anyone seen the new MacBook Air by Apple? It's so cool especially with a thickness of only 1.9 cm and weighing at 1.36kg, I am tempted to get it though I have set my eyes on a Sony Vaio. Retailing at $2988, but with my educational discount of $100 and LDS fund of $400, I will need to pay only $2488. Haha.. ONLY!

Well, $2488 is quite a lot of money given that laptops are selling at about $1000 odd dollars and my HP tablet PC is barely a year old. So, should I save my moolahs and ignore the temptation or should I invest the money for this MacBook Air hence reducing me of all the viruses attack?

I have done my sums, with the savings I have I could afford that precious toy. But... parting away with that huge sum is a little bit too painful.

I guess I will wait till August when COMEX is on. By then, I guess the MacBook Air would have been more stable and of course, I will be spoilt for more choice at COMEX.

Ooh yeah.. and I wanna get that iPhone as well! But for now, I will stick with my HP who has gone thru thick and thin together with me in Sem 1 and going to go thru the same agony this Sem and also the upcoming Sems. No way, am I going to ditch my HP which has been behaving itself for quite a while now. I still love my HP despite the tantrums it throw once in a while. Perhaps, as a protest of hard work! haha..

Patiently and religiously saving up for COMEX 2008!

Date:
Time: 2:02:00 AM

I've finally found my dream wallet. Err.. not really a dream wallet. But rather, a wallet that managed to attract my attention after months of searching. I'd finally fell in love with Diesel's Eliodoro Indexer. And its only like US $65 inclusive of tax and shipping charges. But what the hell! They don't ship to Singapore!! I am so disappointed. I like it so much..

Maybe, I should go to Vivo and check it out. Hopefully, they have it there or else I would be greatly disappointed cos I really treasure my wallets other than of course, my watches! Haiz.. please do not disappoint me any further.....

I hope I feel better after blogging about this.

Date: Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Time: 11:02:00 PM

I have yet to blog any entry for the week. The week begins lethargically. The long weekends was spend procrastinating and in the end many stuff were left undone. *smack my own face REAL hard*!

As a result, I was quite sleepy on Monday and Tuesday although I slept at 11 pm. And today, I felt a lil better but still sleepy when the afternoon came.Last night I slept around 10 pm.

And yesterday, one of my lecturer, gave my class a pleasant surprise. He cancelled our tutorial class for the week hence giving a chance to get ready for his group presentation comes next week. Having said that, and given the fact that his tutorial class is on Thursdays and his class is the only class that I have on Thursdays, that only means that.... I HAVE NO CLASS ON THURSDAY!!! WOW!!

I have 4 days to the weekends! And of course, 4 times the misery of assignments and project work! Haiz...

And today, I did something that I won't normally do on a Wednesday. My class ended at 5.30pm and I went for dinner with my buddies at JP's Swensens. And we went window shopping. And we behaved as if school vacation has started again!

Anyhow, it was fun but what was of no fun was, my group presentation. I screwed it up. Feeling so bad about it. Haiz....

Date: Friday, January 11, 2008
Time: 11:33:00 PM

Sometimes... I wondered if I am simply too nice? I knew I am and can be sarcastic to people. That's because, sometimes a message has to be passed on peppered with sarcasms. Right now, I am pissed. Really pissed.

Some idiot is out to irritate and piss me to death. I wonder what's her purpose. If you'd done wrong, admit it. Do not spurned stories lies to hide that first mistake and then more lies to cover up the previous lies. In the end, you leave behind loopholes!

I am just so pissed off!!

Thank u for making me write another piece of report because of the lies and stories you've created. Damn u arsehole!

I am no magician. I can't help if you missed our activities. There is no way I will change 'No' to a 'Yes'. You're just a pain in my life. Even if you're missing, no one will realised. But since you choose to MIA, why return?

Date: Thursday, January 10, 2008
Time: 11:04:00 PM

I'd always get what I wanted. Whenever I set my eyes and heart on something, I will get it no matter how long I takes to get the things I ever wanted. I believe in intuition. If it tells me that something was going to be mine, that thing will be on its replay mode continuously.

I've set my eyes on something and am working towards achieving it in 3-4 months time, insya-allah.

God, please give me the strength to continue achieving what I have always wanted. Give me the strength to continue the tough days that I'll be facing. All these can be achieve with your blessings. Amin.

Date: Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Time: 5:38:00 PM

School has barely started. Just 3 days into the new semester and yes, I am swarmed with assignments all over again. I have a sastera presentation and a 5 minute conversation presentation up next week. A debate session to focus on as well on top of whatever other assignments that got to be done and submitted in the month of March.

Watta bummer! Our Feb holiday plans will have to be shelved. And yes, it seemed as if my "quarter of a century" birthday will be celebrated with datelines. How nice and memorable my life will be. Yes, I am being sarcastic.

Blog entries are going to be infrequent once again. There are many malay modules to embark on this sem and I am making sure that I will not repeat whatever had happened last sem again. Of course, I will work hard to get the desired grades and fulfilling my promise to him.

This semester will end sooner than I could ever imagine. Once this sem ends, I will walk through this journey all by myself w/o him to give me constant support. Guess its time for me to grow up and be independent!

Date: Sunday, January 6, 2008
Time: 11:47:00 PM

Watta hell of a bummer!

The plan was, the day after returning from the KL trip, was to fetch adik. Bring him to the movies and watch Alvin and the Chipmunks[probably the whatever slots available since it had been quite a while since its running] on Friday and a very good swim on Saturday.

The plan didn't materialise because adik fell ill on Thursday and Friday. Luckily, I've bought the Alvin and the Chipmunks DVD for him so missing a trip to the cinema wasn't so bad after all cos he could have an extra day off and rest while we get ready for the swim which is of much interest to him rather than the movie.

Unfortunately, at 3.45 am on Saturday morning, I was awakened from my sleep and felt like vomiting. Yes, I did vomit and it was greenish in colour! I vomited again sometime around 7 am or so and again at around 9 am. That's it. The swimming plan had to be cancelled as I couldn't even stand upright. I fell asleep at 11 am all the way till 2 pm with my nephew by my side.

I dragged myself to the doctor and made in time before the doctor calls it a day. 5 different kinds of medication. Fever, Gastric, Sore Throat, Giddiness and antibiotics. Cost me $30 but luckily, being a civil servant, I save $10! Haha..

In the evening, when I ate all 5 medications, I had to run to the toilet and vomit everything out cos I couldn't eat any food BUT I had to have food before the medication. My nephew was nagging at me. Saying something about being sick and vomitting and not taking medicine or something between that line. Irritating yet adorable.

I sent him home feeling bad and disappointed that I couldnt fulfilled my promised. He wouldn't let me go just now.. I know he would be upset when he wakes up tomorrow morning. Well, he have to wait till April before I starts my sem break again.

And... its back to school tomorrow!! What a bummer! Blackboard will be my bestfriend again. The printer and laptop will be put to work all over again. The brain cells will be exhausted even before the exams begin. And yes, welcome back sleepless nights!!

Date: Thursday, January 3, 2008
Time: 1:09:00 AM

2007 came and left.

2007 has been a bittersweet year for me. I began 2007 knowing that I'll have a career switch, knowing that 'C' would be posted to London and also knowing that I'll missed all the memories I've had since December 2004.

I left Spin on 23rd February 2007 and began my contract as an educator on 19th March 2007. Two events that happened on two important dates which are associated to my loved ones. 03rd August 2007 sees me back in school as a student once again.

The journey seemed long but it was beautiful and memorable.

2008 has arrived.

What's in store for the New Year? Only God knows. A brand new year and of course a brand new resolution. I am aiming for a perfect result just like how he have done all this while. And, I have started doing my homework. I do not want to disappoint him again.

So, how did I bid 2007 goodbye and ushered in 2008?

Left for KL on 29th Dec 2007. On 31st Dec 2007, we went shopping from noon till about 10pm. Reached the apartment that we were staying and started cooking. We had a wonderful time during the holidays. Dinner was ready at 11.55 pm on 31st December and it was consumed at the stroke of midnight of 01st January 2008 with fireworks display which was just opposite of us, coming from the directions of KLCC and its surrounding.

During the 5 days in KL, we shopped, talked, laughed, cooked, cleaned the house, read books, fooled ard, got our hair done, etc. But nothing beats the enjoyment we shared together. It was really happening. The walk we had... from Berjaya Time Square to Bukit Bintang to Petaling Street and from Petaling Street back to Bukit Bintang on New Year's Day. Bukit Bintang to Petaling Street is about 1.5 km apart and going to and fro makes it a 3 km walk. Plus the fringe walking we'd done prior and after that 3 km walk, I'd guess we have walked about 5-6 km in total just for New Year's Day. The walk wasn't tiring because of the company I'd had.

The holiday had barely ended yet we're already planning for another trip which would be a great fun again! Yeay... Bangkok vs Genting. February 2008!