Date:
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Time: 9:25:00 AM
The past 1 week has been an absolute torture. As I flipped through my books and did my research, many important points came into the picture. But as I embark on my 2500 essay, every important point seemed to disappear. And, the flipping starts all over again. Reading the text wasn't an easy task either. Firstly, I wasn't even interested about the guy that I was reading. Secondly, I wasn't interested in the literature genre that he wrote. Thirdly, it had been almost 4 years of hiatus for a literature in malay assignment. Seriously, it wasn't easy. Furthermore, I was battling sleepy days as well. Thus, making me think in the wee hours of the morning seemed a futile effort.
I began typing the skeleton of the essay on Saturday had more than 1800 words by Sunday night. But, it was all deleted on Monday afternoon on purpose. What I wrote made no head or tail and it was pure distraction. So yeah, delete it!
Time was running out. That Monday afternoon was yesterday, by the way. And the essay submission is Today. And, I felt like crying because I couldn't produce a decent piece of essay. But, I forced myself to write this essay. In the end, by 1.30 am this morning, 18 pages of essay and 3200 words later, I wasn't quite satisfied with that piece of work. I know I could have done better if I had been given a much lighter essay. But, I know I have put in the effort so, I should get the marks somehow. Insya-allah.
Will be making my way to school in a few hours time to submit my essay. Meeting up with my close pal to embark on another piece of essay. It would be done in English. So I don't see much problem in that. Hopefully..
I hope to finish my last piece essay with a bang by tomorrow night and revision gotta start ASAP! The first paper is about in a week's time.And, I am worrying cos seriously I know nuts about what I have been learning. Well, that's a lie but I seriously need to brush all these in one week of pure revision and nothing else.
Am looking forward to 20th November where I will be sitting for my final paper. And yeah, the preparation for my GESL project 2 will start then. I had a busy morning as well yesterday. I had to complete my project proposal, had endless emails exchange with the organiser, the school officials and also my BOSS! What's with the rest who suddenly had so many queries about this and that... and so, being at the top wasn't an easy task.
I knew that but I chose to play with fire. Despite knowing the dangers, I still threw myself into the pit and now am burdened with huge responsibilities. But let's just look on the positive side. Firstly, under my leadership, at least we have completed something. Secondly, at the end of the day, I will get to enjoy the fruits of my labour. Finally, it feels great when the Boss thinks I have been doing a great job and constantly praising me for it. Though, I know I could have done better and be a better leader. But, I just couldn't be bothered cos there are other things that are much more important than this. And, I know I have done a lot compared to some people but I am not going to claim the credits. I will let the Boss decide and the organiser to seal my fate.
Ok, its time to start my research for my psychology essay. Peace out!
