Date:
Friday, November 2, 2007
Time: 3:05:00 PM
As nonsensical/merepek I can get, my mind just simply refused to be as witty and co-operative when it comes to serious matter. I have been immersing myself with thick literature texts since the beginning of this week. But sadly to say, till today, I could only understand about 10 % of what I have read.
As obvious as day, I have two individual assignments which are due next week and two major exams to sit for a week from now. Honestly, I feel like peeing in my own pants seeing that I am not moving towards the finishing line. Grr...!!
After years of ignorance, I am finding it very hard to write something decent in malay. And yes, writing a 2500 essay in malay has not been my forte either. So... how am I going to survive this phase? I got another 1500-2000 words essay in english to battle on. Urgh...!
I will try, try and try to complete these pieces of assignments. I will psycho myself. I will treat myself with the much deserved holiday come December and yes, my motivation is there. I will survive this last hurdle with flying colours!!
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Last night, he came back. But I couldn't be bothered to acknowledge his return for I am still hurt by his words. Though his words meant no harm, just to wake me up from giving others to much face and end up suffering myself, I couldn't accept what he told me. His words were no longer words of comfort or encouragements. It was like he was also one of those who blamed me for giving those idiots too much face! I am not sure how long this cold war between us would last, but I do know that your presence is important for me to hold on during this phase.
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