Date: Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Time: 8:28:00 PM

Keeping silent does not mean I am fine with what's going on.. When you say sorry does not mean I am fine with it. Sorry does not mean some magic would be created either. And, I am really upset right now. Because of some people's irresponsible attitude, I am being blamed even by the man who's my pillars of strength.

Its a few more days to that big day.. yet nothing has been done. If I were to do everything myself, wouldn't I be jeopardizing my own workload? I have already sacrifice my perfect record and I am not going to sacrifice it once more! It took me a few days to get over that previous issue and anymore of these craps would inflate my self-esteem even further.

I seriously felt like crying.. I almost jeopardize another assignment this evening. I almost wanted to cry... and thinking about this reminded me of what he said to me. I have got to learnt to trust others and learn to let go.

But does he ever understand what I am going through right now? Today I almost blew my top at someone who almost 'crushed' my hard work. But I am seriously upset.

For those who knows me, they would know when I suddenly remailed silent for no reason, it just simply means that I am utterly upset and disappointed. Unfortunately, right now.. it seemed that not one single human being knows about it. They still think I am fine with the whole issue.

Any moments from now.. my tears will just flow down my cheeks. Am I on the right track?? I am upset that even he blamed it on me...... Exams is coming and I have yet to revise. And... I just feel like disappearing right now..... Will someone take me away?