Date: Saturday, September 29, 2007
Time: 2:14:00 AM

I am baking some cookies for Raya as I post this entry. Yes... at this wee hours of the morning. Long story cut short, this year's ingredients' shopping was done based on memory without prior checking or planning. That's how ridiculous and selenge I am this year.

What can I say?? With all the impending datelines for assignments and research, there is so little time left and energy level is at an all time low.

And so, I am really hating October. He is not able to make it back in time for Raya due to work commitments. He would be in the States. 6 months ago, that was what I am looking forward to. But about 2 months back, he told me he could not make it in time. How sad..

1 proposal up for checking next Tuesday, an assignment up for assessment two weeks from now coupled with a test,peer teaching next week, Raya is around the corner and a presentation the week after Raya. Reflections to be handed in.. R2(completed), R3 (in the midst of completion as Qs were posted a while ago), R4 (no Qs yet) and R5 (conclusion). How interesting...

Term break is almost coming to an end. And I seriously wondered what did I do during that short pathetic break.

*********Gone are my Mondays that are meant for dates! How boring my life is now...********

Date: Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Time: 1:36:00 AM

Though it is term break, it seemed that I am not having a break at all! I am so sleepy these days as I have to complete my endless assignments and my projects meetings and all.. What's with Raya coming.. all the preparation is really getting on my nerves. I am feeling guilty that this year I am unable to help my mum with her baking stuff that are for sale.

Sometimes, I am wondering if I did the right thing by choosing this path.. or what would the likelihood be if I had chosen the other path? God knows!

I am not regretting this path yet. Just that I am overwhelmed by the tons of assignments, etc.

And.. actually I am thankful for that crap as I am getting closer to sum1 now. Many years back.. I had to turn him down because he came into my life a little too late. Now.. I came into his life way too late! But, we dun really care cos we know we need each other to survive.

Its him that gave me the strength to hold on.. and my presence makes him get a feel of what he missed some years back.

"My life wasn't perfect till you came along..you're my inspirations when I am lost, you took my breath away.. "

Date: Saturday, September 22, 2007
Time: 10:14:00 PM

I have a sudden urge to blog a post despite being swarmed by endless of assignments, proposals, presentations, projects and reports shouting for completion. Also, the endless complaints of making me write non-stop, didn't managed to stop me from blogging.

My last post was dated like almost 10 days ago. Ain't it time to destress and update what has happened in my life??

Life had been kinda harsh. All the assignments are coming in non-stop and is never ending. I barely have 5 hours of sleep daily and there are days that I barely made it on time to break fast at home. That's the test of ramadan.

Anyway, the past two weeks or so, I was busy completing my never ending assignments as well as organising my maiden project on campus. Yes, that project ripped off whatever energy I had left in me.

After the event last Thursday, I was so shagged that I ended sleeping by 11 pm. I didn't wake up till at 9 am the very next morning.

I managed to complete 2 pieces of my assignments and there are 10 more to be done. Like.. what choice do I have? I spent the whole of my Friday preparing for my group's comprehensive report. It was only two months and yeah.. 22 odd pages! And, I had to write a report on each individual's contribution by each members. Haiz.. at least that is done..

Alright.. I got to get back to my endless pieces of assignments!!

Date: Friday, September 14, 2007
Time: 10:33:00 PM

It had been two days since the Muslims in Singapore started their annual fasting month. So far, alhamdullilah that things are going on smoothly. However, the stress mounting from school is really getting unbearable.

I have a charity project up next week. I am in charge and yeah, working with 22 people ain't an easy task. In addition to that, I am suffering from a brain freezing moment. I have so much to write in my report yet I do not know where and how to start.

Today, I spent 6 hours trying to figure out the head and the tail of the report. Yet, I totally give up and just sleep. I am seriously deprived from my sleep. With so many tasks at hand, I've totally forgotten how to look presentable.

I am just so tired. Why is it so hard for my brain to function smoothly? Why do assignments keep coming in despite attempting to finish the stack that I already has? Tell me the answer someone...

Date: Saturday, September 8, 2007
Time: 10:11:00 PM

Just as I thought I have completed all my e-learning assignments and essays, suddenly I realised that I've missed out something. Another graded assignment that has to be completed before my lecture next week. It was at 3.30 am this morning when I realised that I have to do that piece of crap. And yeah.. imagine how upset I was??

Well, I tried to finish my work earlier in the afternoon.. but as you know, I am never a afternoon person. Hence, my brain froze so nothing came out eventually. And, my brain dun function that well on Saturdays. Haha..

I am just destressing right now as I pen my thoughts. I will start on my assignment in a while. I am planning to finish my Ed Psy 2 essay as well..

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Right now, I am missing two person. One, is my beloved adik, whom I last saw as of August 17th. I missed him so much!! I wished I can see him soon.. the amount of assignments that I to complete never seems to get any lesser but it gets higher. And, I smell another presentation in a couple of weeks time. I seriously dunno when I can see him again... Dec hols is still a long wait!

The other person that I missed is of course HIM. He simply touched me with all that he had done for me. That reunion simply made me realise that how wrong I was when I said 'NO' to him 5 years ago. Now, though I know he's attached, he just never fails to entertain to my nonsense. He's always there when I needed his help. I know, I shouldn't be having high hopes about our future, but he's the reason why I am still alive; he's also the reason why I am motivated to finish my course study.

Anyways, I do hope that miracles do happen between us.

Date: Thursday, September 6, 2007
Time: 4:55:00 PM

It had been days since I last updated my blog. What have I been busy with?? Basically, its e-learning week and everything is done online. It had been a learning experience for me.. There are pros and cons to e-learning week.

The luxury is I can wake up at anytime I wish and just forget about all the 8.30 classes that I have to attend and the long breaks in between lesson. I can choose to 'attend' my classes any time and any day. My own time and pace.

But the not so nice thing is... there are so many forums that we have to actively participatie and most importantly is, we got to be responsible to finish all the given assignments!

Hence, I have tried to complete my ICT essay since last Thursday. Its due next Tuesday. So, after rounds of editing, finally its within the acceptable range. I spent a good 8 days doing it!! I better get a good grade for that or what... hahaha..

There were also issues like the server crash as of 12 am this morning and everything was delayed. I ended up finishing two modules and stayed up till 6.30 am. Guess what time I woke up? 1.30 pm! Had a shock of my life... haha.. cleaned my room which is still messy..

Am going to complete my critique template, post another forum, do my reflection and also prepare yet another lesson plan. Hope to complete all this my tomorrow.

Once this is done, I will have to focus on my Ed psy 2 assignment. Luckily, there is no EPL this week. But, I need to go to the library!!

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Just a question to ponder on... if a guy don't like you, would he go all out to render his help for you??

Date: Monday, September 3, 2007
Time: 12:10:00 AM

Last night, I was supposed to wake up and catch Man U's game. But I was too tired that I hardly paid any attention to my alarm when it rang at 12 am. I continued to sleep till about 5 am when my head was telling me to wake up on the results. But another voice was telling me, forget it. It a 1-0 win to United. How true it was when I checked the result at 9 am this morning. Creepy!

So, I slept for 11 hours. I finally woke up at 8 am this morning. So you might guess at what time I slept last night... I tried doing my assignment but to no avail. I have so much to say but no idea on where to start. And as I write this entry, I am still stuck.

Around 3 pm, my head was hurting big time. So, I slept again for another 2 1/2 hours. And, woke up with a influenza attack! Haiz... bummer. And I have not taken my medicine yet.. I might need my sleep real soon. and so.. my assignment is left hanging yet again.

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Sumtymes, I feel like giving up.. sumtymes I wonder if I am such a perfectionist that people fail to understand?

Seriously, I was speaking in simple english. Even to the extent that a primary one student could understand. But why did they make it seemed so difficult? I am still looking for an answer. Can anyone please help??

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