Date: Saturday, July 7, 2007
Time: 11:56:00 PM

Today, I went on a shopping spree. And, I really mean REAL shopping! But, I am still feeling upset despite the retail therapy. It's as if to say that I didn't get any satisfaction at all. I guessed, I am mentally very tired.

I seriously do not want to think about the damage done. Its really HUGE. I am feeling the pain cos I dun feel the sense of satisfaction. Geez!

I was shopping for a pair earring for one of my cousin. I was having that pissed look cos I was tired and the guy was shoving me selection after selection. In the end, he tried making conversation with me. And, he was so surprise that I am such a friendly and witty person. He said initially he was scared to approach me. Hahahaha..

Anyhow, I guessed I mellowed down a lot. In the past, I would throw tantrum every now and then and sulk with the person I am angry with for days or maybe weeks. But now, it just takes 5 minutes and I am ok. And.. yesterday I almost made my fav kiddo cried. Ooh.. I just didn't want him to CRY.. I was so angry with him for making a nuisance in my class. And I punished him. All I did was, made him talk in front of the whole class! But actually, I didnt want to do it. But, I have to make them know that whatever I say, I meant it. But I did reason it out with him at the end of it. I hope he understands.

See, even if you're the apple of my eyes... you'll still be scolded if you crossed the limits. Just ask my lil' devil how I punished him when he misbehaved.

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I am still feeling shitty right now. I am not sure why. Is it because of THAT person? *shrugs*shrugs*shrugs*

No one matters more than you do.