Date:
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
Time: 10:54:00 PM
I am feeling guilty.. very guilty. I know I shouldn't be doing all these. I don't lack anything; but why did it happened? I got to snap out from this real soon before I drowned even further in this mess.
I've been through that harsh reality of life that I wouldn't want another girl to suffer the same fate as me. Or do I want to be the person who ruins someone else's happiness.
Why do I keep falling for the same person despite the fact that I have plenty of guy friends?
Why do Fate appears to be cruel enough as to create chances for me and 'C' and 'P' yet snatched it away when things were about to happen?
I've said before and I'll say it again, I can never sustain a long distance relationship. I've tried. But I failed. I've drifted further from 'P' and now with 'C' as well. I can't be bothered to contact him or simply have nothing to say. Unlike in the past, whenever I sees him, I have tons to say.
Whatever it is... I don't really care. Just that I am feeling guilty that I might be ruining someone else's happiness...... I can't share this with anyone and the feeling sux!
Its time to meet up with the people who made my life worth a million during that past two years! Barely 2 weeks school have started and I am going to run to them again to make me de-stress! And, I have not much energy left to last till Friday!!
